picture postcards

suddenly, i miss my ij days a lot.
seeing the council photos this year,
i realise i took my ij days for granted.

suddenly, i'm feeling extremely insecure.

i realise i miss talking to friends,
i miss every single one of them.
i miss you too.

do you know what it feels like right now?
you've opened a window for me,
only to build a new wall in front of it.

you've been my angel and my devil,
my favourite and my enemy.
i wish you'd just stayed a friend