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I never thought you could miss someone so much you start feeling all...aimless and directionless(?) I am one BIG bundle of contradictions and I'm not just talking about my size. I mean seriously, I hate people clinging on too much yet I feel this need to cling on to something, someone sometimes. *sighs*

I miss you, I really do. Can we stop acting like donkeys and talk normally again please? You're like the only one who understands my s***; I really need my EB back. Unfortunately, I know you too well and knowing you, you don't give a s*** about this sorta thing so...just know I tried and am trying to reach out to you ok?

I wish I were back in kindergarten. Back then, the only things you had to bother about was colouring within the lines of the colouring book. What colour barbie's hair should be, if her shoes matched her bag. If you weren't that big a fan of colouring books, you were worried about which swing you would get during break and everyone would rush for it, boys and girls (backtracking, I always beat the boys to the swings! HAH!) Why can't we all be happy kids again, no troubles, no complexities.

I miss my monkeys, my stayovers, my "12 o clock" embarrassment, my teachers, my extended family, my school grounds, my identity back then...everything is so alien now. It's like trying to walk back in time but never going back to the exact same moment, the feeling just ain't there. Heraclitus did say, you never step into the same river twice. Oh phooey, ben and jerry's anyone?

Eeyore, monkey, tigger, piglet...these are the only ones willing to listen but can't. No offence to my friends now but everyone's so busy nowadays, it's difficult to actually take time out to meet again. Sometimes, I need my wreckless friends and not everyone can live with these wreckless moments eeryday so I understand but really, I miss having wreckless friends who'll just go out and chill the whole day because I need to. Heck, if you need to be wreckless too, just ask me and I'll gladly help you for all the s*** we've been through.
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