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!!!SICKIE WICKIE ALERT!!!
the bug is out there...BEWARE!Over the past few days I've been down with the germies and trust me, it's no bed of roses. The sleep was an added bonus but whooboy, the constant drippy nose and toilet visits were NOT my idea of a holiday. One holiday that I did take though, was a soul trip. During my "lie-ins" and hovering between a state of consciousness and subconsciousness, I did manage to think through some things...funny how it felt like those drama stories where only when you were going through a diffiult crisis or something of that sort, did u get these "messages". Well, anyhow I did and now, the truths...
DID YOU KNOW...
I'm actually kind of a girly girl? I know, it's difficult to imagine me as that but seriously, I am after all, a girl(and a slightly girly one at that!)
I don't mean to be whiny now that I've let it out but will it KILL just to treat me as one sometimes? Girls do cry more easily, I just keep it in because there are other people relying on me. It doesn't mean that just because I don't openly show my emotions, I am EMOTIONLESS!!! So please,do me a favour: DON'T ACT SO SURPRISED WHEN I ACTUALLY SEEM VULNERABLE AND NEED YOUR HELP!!! Thus far, I have only found 2 people worthy of being real human beings because a) they could sense that I was upset and offered me a shoulder to cry on. b) they were constantly there for me for like...forever! Plus, I'm finally treated like a girl when I'm with them.

2nd revelation:
discontent aside, there is this other itsy bitsy thing I'm guilty of...heheh...that is:
MY EXPECTATIONS OF PEOPLE ARE TOO HIGH
maybe that's why I feel that sometimes, you guys don't treat me right(guys being a generic term of course). Seriously, I feel that sometimes, when my mood's kinda rough, I tend not to cut some slack. Take that time for instance, I had a friend and that friend promised to do something for me but obviously, it wasn't done to my satisfacion and I got REEAAALLLY mad and disappointed. It carried on for a few days before an apology was given(from the other party of course, pride's not one of my good points either :( oh well, we can't win 'em all haha...) As I was saying, that incident really made me think because when I asked someone if MY EXPECTATIONS OF PEOPLE ARE TOO HIGH, she actually said yes. Well blow me down but I was really shocked cos usually, people would be less direct and well...she wa usually kinda TACTFUL. For it to come out at full blast, yeah, it must have been pretty bad. The reason why I brought it up was because yup, I did it AGAIN. I put my expectations way up there till NASA couldn't reach it and when it fell, multiply the weight of hopes and dreams by 10^1000000000000000000. You bet it hurt...especially in the heart. So, I guess this time-off was also kind of a "recovery" period.

MORAL OF THE STORY:
Don't ever get sick cos when you do, you have too much time on you hands to think.



HOWEVER, to all those whom i've hurt with my scathing remarks and insensitive blaming and whatever this evil soul could have some up with, i'm sorry and I love you!!! i know, i may be harsh but, please forgive me? "I know not what I do..." PLUS I can't stop loving you...